guess what?!

My wonderfully fabulous Aunt Terri read my last post and (because she is a shameless spoiler of her nieces and nephews) promptly searched for the dresses I loved so much. Unfortunately some of them were out of stock while others were only available in the wrong sizes. SO, she sent me a gift card to modcloth! aaaaah! Needless to say, I wasted no time finding two new, ridiculously cute, dresses!

Ta da!

"Row Your Bow-t"


"Don't Call it a Comeback"


THANK YOU, AUNT TERR! You really shouldn't spoil me so... I'll turn into a rotten brat! haha
Love you lots. xoxoxo - Jellybean

what i wish I were wearing...

Elissa, my wonderful but very far away friend, introduced me to modcloth.com tonight.
Within 20 minutes I found my dream dresses...
so, these are the dresses I'd be wearing if I had some $fund-ilation$ to spend...

You can find these dresses, and hundreds of other FABULOUS clothing items, at www.modcloth.com

"Latitude and Longitude Dress"

"Buds by the Hundreds Dress"

"Ribbon Dancer Dress" (favourite)

"Platinum Party Dress"

"In the Limelight Dress" (2nd favourite)

gotta sing, gotta act!

So, as some of you may know, I'm going to be running musical theatre summer day camps for kids in August. I did a similar sort of class through parks and rec for a couple of years and figured "why not do what I love, make some money and teach kids how to be confident in their talents?"
And so, it's happening! As soon as the website is good to go (Tomorrow, I believe) I will be printing out flyers and distributing them at rec. centers and churches across Abbotsford.

All this to say, I'm excited! Because I'm still healing, this "self-employment" allows for me to not only create my own cirriculum and manage my own schedule, but also to do a couple of courses without "over-doing it", leading to another health-digression.

To add some visual interest, here are a couple of photos I had sent to Jon Campbell (who is creating my website for me!) as possibilities for my "instructor" page...

singing at YC

Guys and Dolls!

Les Miserables (dress rehearsal)

"Rat" - Fantastic Mr. Fox

"Cars That Go Boom!"

YC

Les Miserables

i want to paint a picture.

I want to paint a picture -
not of flowers or of buildings,
but of you and me. Right now.
I want to cover the canvas with
blues and greens. Peace, contentment.
I want to splash yellow across the middle.
Happiness.
And for love - for our love - Rose.
Not quite pink, not quite red.
Warm, inviting...comfortable.
And I want all the colours to compliment each other,
Like you compliment me.
And in the middle, I want there to be a tree,
and on that tree will be a swing.
Because a swing is a place where you can fly.
And you can laugh... and you can dream.
You're that place for me.

this is April.

So, there have been some big changes - mostly my health and my hair! I'm doing really well, health-wise, so praise the Lord because He's been doing amazing things in this silly body of mine. I'm still on a SUPER strict diet (bummersville) but I would rather eat rice and bok choy for lunch EVERY day than feel the way I felt in January, February and March. Shocking revelation - which may or may not be accurate - I think I might be allergic to some nuts... PEANUTS being one of them! What's the point of going ON, I ask you? No peanut butter? Are you KIDDING me?! We'll see if that's true though... It's hard to tell.

And now for the hair - I was feeling kind of "blah" about myself... the skin thing left me looking slightly aged and my hair had been tightly pulled back in a high Sumo wrestler bun for about three months (it itched my shoulders and neck otherwise!). SO, I decided to go a little funky... to show off my artsy side, if you will. More blonde and a little splash of pink. It's fun and unique and I'm loving it!
Below are two pics: one of da' hair, and one of Howie and I, Tori and Elise's new puppy (SO cute, too bad he can't stay that way forever...)

patience.

So, its back to what it was in those first few pictures taken on February 3rd.
I was only given a few days worth of steroids, and when they were done, the problem that they had "fixed" came back full force. Because steroids take down inflammation, once you STOP taking them (and are still trying to detox those things out of your system) you swell up. Bummer.
I'm still confident that God is healing me... I won't lie though, its hard to be patient. He's healed me before (ask me some time about what happened in Cuba), so I know He can... I'm just wondering when He will.
Luckily I didn't have school this week because there's no way I could go - this semester has been a gong show, attendance-wise. I've missed A LOT. Had I known how sick I would become, I never would have registered.
But, the show must go on!

Keep praying for me, if you think of it. Pray that I would sleep through the night and that the swelling would go down in my eyes. Basically just pray that God would heal me VERY soon. So soon that it can be a testament to HIS ability to heal, and not that of detoxification or meds.

Much love. Jay

less than three days...

Just like I promised - here are the photos. First few taken on February 3rd while talking to Whitty on the phone, followed by those I took earlier today.